where are you..?
dono y suddenly become very emotional after hearing qing tian (my favourite chinese song).. somehow, even tho the lyrics are not relevant, it makes me feel somehow after all that i've trying to do, like things like getting close frens like hiok and marcus and gfs that don't last just to fill up that emptiness inside me, im still a lonely person after all. people see me like quite active lidat but actually when im with myself, im actually very, very quiet. very. quiet. and now i realise how hard it is to find urself a lasting partner who is willing to share weals and woes with you; who makes your day just by seeing her; who makes you feel somehow that your life is incomplete without her, in a boys school like RI. my contact with girls is just getting lesser and lesser and im wondering how im gona cope my rjc life with tons of girls walking arnd in ur same class, same school compound.. i dono if i can have the confidence i used to have a few yrs back when i tot every girl i met was the girl of my dreams. i dono if i have the stamina to ensure a long lasting relationship when it does hit me nxt time. Somehow, i feel that my life is just incomplete without her. where are you? i need you..
`cher!sh~
[12:16:00 AM]
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